Thursday, August 15, 2013
I'm Buying Chickens
I know I've been M.I.A. and I am sorry about that but life has been a little crazy and I'm trying to learn how to juggle everything. In memory of Mike I am continuing my chicken tradition of buying chickens through Gospel for Asia.
It's hard to believe another year has passed without Mike in my life. I know that God is all I need but I would be lying if I said that Mike's passing didn't leave a huge whole in my heart and life. I am not very good at sharing my feelings and I think people must think I am so cold hearted but the truth is I do have feelings and sometimes I have to remind myself daily that God has a plan. Mike dying was not an accident or out of God's control. God was and is in full control and who am I to question why He took Mike.
One of many things that I have learned over these past three years without Mike is that He balanced me out. I've had to learn to stay grounded and keep my feelings in check. I'm grateful to God for giving me a sister who is always willing to listen to me.
As the Godly husband he was, He also kept me headed in the right direction. I don't know what the future holds but I know I can trust in God to guide me, I just need to make sure to stop and listen. This Saturday, the anniversary of Mike's home going, I will be spending the day fasting from food and also electronics just like I have in the year's past and I will be meditating and praying for direction for this next year of my life. I want to be sure I am in God's will. My desire is to bring God glory in all I do!