Tuesday, March 25, 2014

So Confused

I have such a mix of emotions.  On one hand I have learned to be content in the situation God has me in (Philippians 4:11) but on the other hand I long for a husband so much that I start second guessing myself and thinking that maybe I'm not content.  I'm just so confused. 
I know God's grace is sufficient for me (2 Corinthians 12:9) and I know God is my protector (Psalm 68:5).

While I was having my MRI done I was laying there praying thru it and I was praying about a husband and whether or not it was the Lord's will for me to remarry.  Looking around in my life there are no eligible Christian men anywhere which is fine because that makes it very clear to me that God does not want me to remarry.  Then I started thinking maybe I need to be more intentional about it.

Have I mentioned I'm full of lots of mixed emotions.


sara said...

Oh Lizzie, I am praying for you. When I am confused about what God has for me these are verses that help:

Isaiah chapter 14:24 where God says “Surely, as I have planned, so it will be and as I have purposed, so it will happen”.

Ps 16:5-6…”Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance”

Psalm 139:1-4 says “ O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with ALL my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord.”

When I realize how big God is and how intimately He knows me..he knows the desires of my heart...it helps me to trust Him with my future and be content with what He has for me because what He has planned WILL happen and it will be for my best!

rita said...

Dear Lizzie,
I am just now catching up on your posts and praying for you.
I am reading a book, The Gospel of Ruth. Just finished a chapter about widows and the value God places on them. He has very special purposes for you to live out. As you do, He may bring a Boaz into your life. Ha, and you may need to be proactive at some point ;-) Meanwhile, as per your quote from Corrie Ten Boom, you need not borrow tomorrow's care.
Love you!