Yes… the Sunday before Valentine's Day they announced at church that they were starting a Singles Fellowship group.
At first I was excited but rather quickly I became very hesitant about the idea of attending.
My thoughts were all over the place.
- I was worried it would be a group of young college aged singles or it would be full of old weirdo men (I know, not very nice of me to be thinking but that's what I was thinking)
- I didn't know how I was going to get to the meeting (yes I know Kathy would have been happy to take me but I really didn't want to add one more thing onto Kathy's plate and I didn't know how picking me up would work out.)
- I didn't know how I would do going and not knowing anyone. Would I stress out and have a seizure?
- I didn't know if this was going to end up being a live "Christian Mingle" session.
- So many thoughts, so many concerns.
As soon as they announced it, I started praying. Praying for wisdom to know whether or not I should attend.
First, I contacted the Ladies Ministry leader (since it was going to be held at her house) and asked her what the age range was and she quickly responded that there was no age range, all singles are welcome. She gave me her address and the gate code to get into her subdivision. I had my first question answered and didn't think much more about the email, I just kept praying.
Then I mentioned the email to Kathy and she said to map out the address to see where it was. I clicked on it and asked for directions and the house was showing to be 1 mile away from our house. So, my second concern was resolved because I could walk over and back home without having to bother Kathy for a ride.
I prayed some more because I really am trying to figure out my body in regards to my seizures. Trying my best to prevent them.
I realized that I had been wanting and praying for a group like this and it was just fear holding me back from going. So Thursday night came and I took a HUGE step of faith and walked over to the house.
I was so glad I went, I was so blessed. There was a wide range of people in attendance. I sat next to Vicki, a 58 year old lady who loves the Lord and is very involved in ministries at church. She asked me where I lived and I told her I live real close by and that I actually walked over. As soon as I got the words out of my mouth she says "Oh, well I will take you home". Isn't it amazing how God works things out. Why do I question Him and worry about the details when He has it all figured out for me?
Tony, a 23 year old, saved only one year, gave the message that night. He spoke on what love really is. He did a great job and it was exactly what I needed to hear. The world's view of love is so messed up and yet we are so inundated with that idea of love that it can start creeping into our thinking of love also.
After the meeting we got to socialize a little and then Vicki took me home. When we got into my driveway, she gave me her name, number, address, email and said she would pick me up from now on so I didn't have to worry about transportation at all.
I am so glad I took that step of faith. Although it was a HUGE step for me, it opened my eyes to see that I have been living a "safe" life. I haven't really been stepping out of my comfort zone too much and therefore just going along, minding my own business, but not really growing in my walk with the Lord.
Taking this step of faith showed me how God has it all under control and I CAN and SHOULD fully trust in Him!